What up Kaysar....lol

So just so ya’ll know…no handwriting on the wall yet…lol

Umm well, we are going to go to the classes…we are interested. Last night Jimmie learned that “special needs” adoption can also merely mean a sibling group so he kind of likes that option and with “special needs” adoption the fees are less – plus instant family! Lol… There were a few things that we didn’t care for. Such as, if we were to be foster parents, part of our responsibility is to sort of partner with the natural parent because if the ultimate goal is to get the kid back in their home, then we would need to try to help facilitate that as much as possible, like, taking them for visits etc. Of course, our minds go to worse case scenario such as if we had to bring a little girl to visit a daddy that had abused her…Jimmie especially said he’d have a real hard time with that particular scenario…I would too for that matter….but on the other hand there are tons of kids – older kids – hoping for a “forever family”. When we first got there last night, there was a pamphlet in some of the hand outs they gave us and as soon as I opened it and saw the children’s pictures, I teared up... I just can't imagine what it would be like to not have a family, ya know? Man....

It’s a lot to think and pray about…but I am starting to envision the possibility. Jimmie is really trying to be so supportive but also not get his hopes up because I’m so on the fence too…I just can’t explain what a struggle this is for us right now… Like I said, Jimmie is trying to be so supportive of whatever I want to do that sometimes, when he doesn’t express his opinions because he’s trying not to put any undue pressure on me or protect my feelings…I do lash out at him sometimes and tell him it appears that he doesn’t care….why do I do that? Of course he cares….I mean, he bent over backwards as far as his work schedule just to go to that meeting with me last night…so as we were gobbling down dinner before the meeting I had to apologize for accusing him of not caring…agh….our communication skills could certainly use some work sometimes…

Blah…well…I feel like I’m babbling and not making any sense whatsoever…I just wanted to report that we are intrigued about our options as far as foster parenting or adopting and we will be taking the classes…if they accept us…there’s a whole lot of paperwork and screening etc to be done and then they call us to say we can come to their class if we want. So I suppose if God wanted to give us an emphatic answer, we’d be rejected and that would be that…if not, we’ll continue to pursue this option and see where it leads…I think whatever happens, the classes might be really interesting. There is no corporal punishment allowed on foster children, for obvious reasons, but they said there is a whole session on alternative methods of discipline….I’ll be sure to share some of those with you all and you can let me know how those work out for you! Lol

Well thanks again for your continued prayers in this area….

On a completely superficial, unimportant note…Blah at Big Brother…I’m so glad this tasteless, classes, horrid season has ended…I’m with Jen, I’d rather they had to vote for anyone other than either of the Donatos…but whatever…it’s over…thank goodness…hopefully, they really evaluate what kind of scumbag they let win this year…but being that “America” voted for Dick to win – ugh…CBS may think that most people liked what happened this season… who was voting anyway? I must admit, I didn’t vote…so I guess I can’t complain…but whatever…it’s over…end of ramblings…oh one final thing to say though…it was cool to see Howie and Janie and Kaysar on the show last night! Lol I think they are still my favorites…what up Kaysar…..k – enough of that….

So um Monday evening for my coughbirthdaycough Jimmie took me out to dinner…we were going to go out last Friday to see the new Jodie Foster movie but he ended up having to work late so we didn’t do that. But I still really want to see that movie – has anyone seen it? The Brave One? Anyways, so we went to dinner – I picked a restaurant at the casino and then we gambled for a bit after dinner. We both left with more money than we came with so good times…I won and lost but netted a $10.00 profit…Jimmie won and lost but ended up with a $55.00 profit. I couldn’t do that every day…but it’s fun once in a while. It’s funner when you leave with money in your pocket though…lol…

Umm…well…I guess that’s about it for this entry…catch ya’ll later!