WOWIE!

What a trip man! Let me just say, I have a whole new appreciation and utmost respect for mothers and fathers... oh my heavens... what an emotional roller coaster... we've almost survived our first week! Halleluiah! Maybe I shouldn't jinx it til tomorrow though huh! lol

I'll tell ya what... Monday morning I was ready to give em back... I got to work before my boss and when she got to work she said hello and I started bawling... THANK HEAVENS for a woman boss who is more friend than boss let me tell you... she came over and hugged me and we talked and by the time I went home I felt a little more normal.

I'm still not completely sure that this whole motherhood thing is for me, but as I was thinking about it just a little while ago, ya know if we can just help these little ones for as long as they need it (which may not actually be very much longer - there may be a family member that qualifies to have custody) then we've done a good thing and really, I've lived for 37 doing so much of nothing much to help out others, it's about time I stepped up...

I've been having in my mind and my heart, that scripture that says something about... the least you do unto these little ones you do unto Me.... or something to that affect... I know that I absolutely could not do this on my own accord and I do know that I have felt so fortified by the many many prayers that many many people are sending up to Heaven on our behalf... it's the coolest feeling... I actually feel prayed for... it's amazing and I appreciate every prayer for us...

The other thing that has been absolutely humbling and a total blessing is how people have just come out of the wood work to help us. Sunday, we decided we really needed a high chair... and a few hours later, without any prompting, a neighbor brought over some clothes, some toys, and guess what else.... a high chair! Mom and Missy coming down last Friday and bringing all the stuff they brought to us was so helpful too... the moral support was so encouraging and very much needed... and this week Jimmie's cousin Karen came down with TONS of stuff from various people on his side of the family... our house runneth over with clothes and toys... and she also brought stuff to make us dinner... we came home last night to the smell of pot roast (neither Jimmie nor I really eaten a decent meal since last Thursday) and because she'd been at our house all day... she cleaned! I wanted to keep her! lol She watched the girls while we talked to the worker.... lots of angels coming together to make this all work... it's obvious we're not doing this alone... and like I said, truly humbling to me... I just can't thank everyone enough...

The girls are doing really well... now that we are sort of getting a routine going... daycare is a God send! And they seem to totally enjoy it too.... I always thought I'd be one of these people who'd like to be the stay at home type... but not so much... I definately have the utmost respect and sheer awe for people like Mandy and Kelley who are committed to being stay-at-home mommies... I'm not sure that's for me... lol... maybe if I'd been eased into this situation, I'd feel differently but at this moment in time... not so much...

Anyway, thank you for the prayers and encouragement... keep these little ones and their mommy in your prayers! And me and Jimmie too for sure... especially in the mornings... I'm pretty much a drama queen in the morning... blah... lol...

Thanks again!