I'm such a wimp!

If ever I do get pregnant...it's not going to be pretty...I'm such a drama queen ya'll...oh my goodness....

********Although I'm trying to be discreet, this probably should have a severe overshare warning lol**********

so the test today hurt...I was so done with it 10 minutes into it...but the doctor today was very persistent and it paid off a little bit...he was able to get the tube in but didn't get a "good enough seal on it" (whatever that means) and so he was able to fill my uterus but not my tubes...(ok...this is so stinking weird to be just telling about my inner parts lol...but like my mother said, it becomes more about anatomy and biology the more you talk about this sort of stuff - at any rate, I'm so happy to have a place to vent and document this stuff...sorry if I offend anyone with severe overshare or whatever...I'm trying to use discretion, ie. I'm not going to type out all the gory details. Suffice it to say it hurt like the dickons though man!) He had to use the pinchers. And the small ones didn't work so he had to use larger ones. The pinchers didn't hurt as much as when he was actually successfully putting the dye in....oh man!! Like I said, I'm a wimp and if and when I do have a baby...they just better knock me out.

Anyway, so he said that not being able to fill my tubes wasn't a bad thing necessarily. He said that that was probably due to not being able to keep the liquid in place long enough to get it into my tubes. SO...now he does a report back to my doctor and we'll go from there. He said most likely they'll want to do a scope procedure next which they put you to sleep for...I was thinking that I should have been put to sleep for the procedure today...but ok...

So I knew I was a cry baby before, but Wednesday and today really put a spotlight and how I do not handle intense situations well at all...I bawled on Wednesday and I came out bawling today. Husband went with me and when I came out to greet him and all I could was cry, he thought something was seriously wrong...after several minutes I was able to calm down enough to talk to him...then I started bawling again...several more minutes later I was able to call mom and not cry on the phone lol...then we drove by Logan's and we decided to eat there.

I'm really feeling ok right now...sort of tender but overall...I'm ok...

Husband has been working some crazy hours lately and he is exhausted so when we got home we both decided to crawl in bed and nap...he's still sleeping...

We did get to go by mom and dad's new house earlier....it is still prettiful! The people that left there left the house a mess though...so mom has got a lot of cleaning to do. We may go over and help her tomorrow. There are also a lot of places where they need to touch up the paint and the room that was the teenage boy's is atrocious....the carpet is ruined and the walls are all scuffed up. Mom keeps saying they need to gut it and dad says that means you want to take the dry wall out so it doesn't need gutted...lol...the basement is unfinished so dad has a project...I'm sure when they leave this house they will make a lot of money on it too because dad is magical at finishing basements (I'm a bit of a daddies' girl myself...who wouldn't be with a dad like mine? He rocks! My mother is pretty cool too...but I'm way too much like her to totally appreciate all that is her...does that make any sense? I do love her and couldn't imagine life without her. Ok...sorry to make this a whole analysis of my parental type people.)

well...I have basketball to watch...I fear that tonight will be the last night this season that UofL or UK play...so I guess I should watch and let them prove me wrong! I didn't do a bracket this year because I know UK won't go very far and I just couldn't write it down...

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

Lots of love...thanks for the prayers and thoughts today...I felt them and needed every one!