An actual entry.....

I was determined to have journaled at a least a little bit by the end of the day today! Lol….I know it’s been years…. I can’t even say that I’ve been lurking cuz I haven’t… and I’m not gonna make excuses cuz everyone was busy at the holidays…. Anyway, I hope to get back into more of a routine with the journaling and reading about ya’ll’s lives… I hope that all is well… if not, you should have put it in your Christmas letter like Jimmie’s cousin did…

Seriously, bless her heart but I’ll tell you about a Christmas letter we received… you know those Christmas letters that people put in their Christmas cards, usually to tell of the more positive happenings in a families’ life throughout the year… the Christmas letter that Cousin S wrote began with a recap which included bad things that had happened to her back to 2005. Her mother died right before Christmas in 2005…. A week before Christmas in 2006, she discovered an email which led to the discovering that her husband was cheating on her. So 2007 has been about the divorce… and it’s not one of those amicable, done in a day or so divorces… so that brings us to Christmas 2007, her attorney told her that soon to be ex is filing for bankruptcy and unless she wants all the creditors to come after her, she must file also, which will delay the already yucky divorce….and she ends this whole recap with “Other than that, it’s been a great year… .”

It was actually a good thing to get that letter because I had recently found out that in that family name draw, I had her name and I was stumped as to what to get her but after I got that letter, I pulled out a book from Women of Faith… “Keeping a Princess Heart in a not-so-fairy-tale world” and put inside the book the gift card that I had gotten her… she really seemed excited about the book too… so hopefully that will help her a little bit… she has LOTS of problems other than the whole divorce thing… so please just keep Cousin S in your prayers…. I do feel sorry for her, however, she is one of these people that just brings bad things her way…. Anyways… this is not her journal…. Lol

An update on the whole foster/adopt thing….we had our second home study just before Christmas and I did pose the scenario to the social worker that we also had to probably prepare ourselves for the fact that we might not even get approved and she told us that that didn’t seem likely… so the report that they do on us is due at the end of January and we should have our approval letter when we get back from our cruise…

It’s very nervousing to think that in a month or two there could be children at our house…we could be responsible for little people…. Someone might be thinking of me as a sort of mother figure… and should we adopt… I’d be someone’s mom…. I know that mostly people who are moms read this and I’m sure you had the same thoughts… I just keep trying to imagine what it will be like and it is kinda crazy to me! Lol I don’t know… I don’t think I’m explaining myself very well… I wouldn’t say that I’m excited at this point but rather anxiously anticipating what’s going to happen next…. Like if you gave birth to a baby… you had that nine month period where you adjusted to that the fact that you were going to have a baby… and at the end of the anticipation period, you knew you were getting a baby… with us, we don’t know who will come through our door…or how many… because we’ve put ourselves out there as wanting to adopt siblings and being willing to take in 2 or 3 kiddos at a time…. I’m sure a few months from now I’ll be able to look back and wonder what I was worrying about… but here, at the precipice of this experience, it’s just like, am I really ready for this?

Anyway… we’re also getting excited about going on a cruise very soon!! Well, I say “we” but I think I mean more “me”… in Sunday School on Sunday I went to the restroom and I came back and Jimmie was talking to someone about the Titanic… I asked him if he was whining about going on a cruise and he said yeah…. Goofball!

Well… I didn’t promise a long entry but at least I squeaked out a little update…. I aim to catch up on reading journals real soon too… you all are in my thoughts and prayers regardless……