I feel like journaling but I’m not real sure what I want to journal about… does that make sense? Lol
Hasn’t the weather been absolutely delightful the last few days… I dread the return of the cold weather by the end of this week… hopefully that won’t last long… I’m ready for a lot of sitting on the porch in the evenings and stuff and leaving the windows open at night…. We discussed it yesterday at work and we decided that it wouldn’t hurt our feelings one bit if it got to be like 75 degrees outside and it just stuck… hmm… makes ya wonder if maybe that’s how the weather will be in heaven huh…
Actually, about Heaven… I really like C.S. Lewis’ interpretation of Heaven at the end of the Chronicles of Narnia… when it was time to got to the place that had been prepared for them… they were caught up and they were flying (much like it says in the Bible that we will be caught up) and while it seemed like they were going a long long way, it was really just further and further in and in the end they ended up in Narnia but a perfected version… like the colors were sharper and more brilliant than ever and everything was just, more better – the perfect Narnia – the way it was meant to be before it had been corrupted… does that make sene? Maybe I’m not telling it right (I’m not a great storyteller lol)… it’s really worth reading yourself… but anyway, the point seemed to me to be that, I mean, we have this beautiful Earth already, what if Heaven is just further up and further in … I mean God created Earth and man and at first everything was perfect. So maybe Heaven is going to be the perfected version of everything that is pleasant and beyond our wildest dreams here on Earth… am I making sense? Lol Anyways… it’s something to ponder. And I can’t wait to see if for myself someday!
Ya know what I struggle with… and it’s the simplest thing really… but for some reason this is where I am weak at times… thank goodness the Lord gave us scripture to encourage me when I’m feeling like this though… scriptures like:
Ephesians 2:8 & 9
8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—9not by works, so that no one can boast.
I struggle with the simpleness of salvation. I mean I know John 3:16 sums it up, right… and even in Romans, it’s laid out very simple:
Romans 10:9
9That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
so why do I feel sometimes that because sin creeps back in on me or if I feel that I’m not witnessing or praying or reading the Bible as much as I should that some how the wonderful gift of salvation will be taken away from me. So I am also thankful for scriptures like this:
Romans 8:38 & 39
38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Because I know I’m a Child of God, it’s just… I don’t like when those doubts creep in… like I could do something to make God not love me anymore… Does anyone else have those thoughts? Maybe I just need to tape the above scriptures to my forehead… lol maybe that’s where the old Israelite tradition came from, of hanging scripture around their neck… I’m going to wear this scripture until it’s pounded in my brain! Lol… actually, I think getting these thoughts out where I can read them, makes me see that that might be the key… it’s my lack of being in the Word as much as I should be… not to be “rewarded” for reading the Bible the most but to be truly rewarded by actually paying attention to life’s instruction manual… hmm.. that’s a thinker… (and thanks for “listening” as I thought that all sort of “out loud” lol)
On the other hand, I’ve learned that when I am straying and sin is creeping back in, that wonderful Holy Spirit whispers to me and makes me long for that connection to God to be restored and strengthened.
It’s a funny thing, this spiritual journey. Some lessons I feel like I have to learn over and over again and I think I’m slowly getting it. In a lot of ways, I’m a perfectionist and I feel like if I can’t do something perfectly, I don’t even want to try. I have to fight those perfectionist tendencies when it comes to the spiritual journey (and many other areas) because I’m not perfect and I won’t be able to be the perfect Christian or person for that matter… because there’s no such thing! Lol… Can I get a Thank You Jesus!
*random change in thoughts*
Last night, I was watching the news and they were showing a story about a young girl, she’s like 20 or 21, she was sentenced yesterday to 10 years in prison. She was a pretty, respectable looking girl. Her crime – driving drunk. She lost control of her car and as a result, a semi rolled over and killed one person in the semi truck. One night, one dumb decision, could have been anyone. One life lost and several lives ruined. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy justice is being served. She probably deserves a longer sentence… but the sad part to me is that our Creator has to yet again look at how His creation is falling because of sin. The stronghold of sin that sneaks and destroys lives in an instant…
Well, I reckon I’ll get off my soap box… I’m in a deep thoughts kind of mood can ya tell… lol… this is what happens when I decide to journal without a particular topic in mind… my mind just wanders…
Have a blessed day….
2 days ago
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