Happy 2012!

Happy New Year! WOW! What a wonderful blessed holiday season we had at our house!
 On December 3, we were blessed to welcome a new little one into our home for as long as she needs to stay with us. She is now 16 months old. We will just refer to her as Little A. She’s on track so far to go back home to her mommy, who seems to love her very much but just has a few issues to work out. I just can’t imagine how that family feels with their little one gone over the holidays… it really makes me that much more thankful for all the blessings in my life.

We are also quickly approaching the end of the appeal period. On December 7 the Judge signed an order that put us a giant step closer to being able to adopt our two Littles Matthew and Cali. One day, a few weeks ago I arrived at work and was greeted in the hallway by a large group of very happy people with balloons, etc. They had obviously just finalized an adoption and by the time I got to my desk I was in tears because I was so happy for them but yet I want it to be my turn and it will be very very soon!!!

I am feeling pretty burdened lately for one of Jimmie’s cousins. She is in her early 30’s and recently learned she is going to have to undergo a hysterectomy. She is single, doesn’t have any children, and is not religious one bit. Jimmie and I talked to her a good while on New Years’ Eve (that’s when his family had their Christmas get together), and then for the next few nights I would wake up in the middle of the night just crying, heartbroken for her. I know exactly what she’s feeling, facing the death of a vision of one day being able to carry a child in her belly… making a little person that is half you and half the one person you love most in the world. There’s just nothing in this life that will ever replace that longing that most all women have in them to give birth. Even 3 years after having had a hysterectomy myself, I still find myself from time to time, wishing, hoping, praying for some miraculous pregnancy; after all, there was Sarah, Elizabeth, Mary… the list goes on of women in the Bible and even in modern day life who shouldn’t have gotten pregnant but did. Actually, that is just a sometimes longing. I am pretty confident that Jimmie and I are creating the family that we were meant to create and wouldn’t have created had we been able to procreate. But back to the cousin… she is single, which is not a dynamic that I had to deal with when I had my surgery. However, like I told her, even though Jimmie has constantly reassured me that I shouldn’t feel this way, at first I really felt like I was letting him down, like he had a broken wife. And then there’s the whole Faith thing. I will never forget that little insignificant moment I paused sometime in the middle of whatever I was doing one day and said a little prayer about my situation and the Holy Spirit just flooded over me, it was almost tangible, that “peace that passes all understanding” over me… washed straight down from my head to my toes. A-mazing! And unforgettable. Without my loving Heavenly Father carrying me through that time, whispering words of comfort, filling me with peace, and the mighty prayer warriors in my life, I would have not came through on the other side of that situation with victorious peace – I would have sunk into a pity party whoa is me depression. So, having said that, please pray with me for Jimmie’s cousin. She will probably have the surgery sometime in February.



I guess that’s it for now… Keep on the Sunny Side of Life!